i told my kids, and my dad today. wasnt easy. the kids handled it just fine, i think they are young enough to think that im still invinsable.
it is funny, my whole life i have spent pursuing career, and hobbies that would kill me, somehow hoping that it would, and when i actually have to face the end, all i want to do is...
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it is funny, my whole life i have spent pursuing career, and hobbies that would kill me, somehow hoping that it would, and when i actually have to face the end, all i want to do is...
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ok gang,
i told many of you about getting hurt, and i had the operation, it was sucessful. however, when they had me open, they found something else.
im sick, and going to get sicker. the tumor is the size of a baseball, but it has spread.
im not going to be well enough to keep up with my friends online, and will probably let...
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i told many of you about getting hurt, and i had the operation, it was sucessful. however, when they had me open, they found something else.
im sick, and going to get sicker. the tumor is the size of a baseball, but it has spread.
im not going to be well enough to keep up with my friends online, and will probably let...
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koleeta:
Hey, I'm sorry, that's really awful. Take care of yourself and I really hope everything turns out good.
daisuki:
good luck. my prayers are with you.
i just watched dennis miller"raw feed", and for the most part, i laughed my ass off. hes against liberals, conservitives, and sean penn. i hope everyone watches it.
in the mean time, while i was working out, i noticed a posterboard sign high on the wall, and it had a list of gym records for weights lifted, by the weight of the lifter, then a...
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in the mean time, while i was working out, i noticed a posterboard sign high on the wall, and it had a list of gym records for weights lifted, by the weight of the lifter, then a...
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sabine:
ohh that sounds painful.. good luck w/your surgery.
hehe, a flame job on a house would be great.
hehe, a flame job on a house would be great.
bubblesinalaska:
hell ya.....flames sound like a must.....the liftin' deal sounds painful.......too much of anything's proly not a good idea bro.........ouch!
i'm in the process of starting to build a new house myself.....just puttin' in a driveway now.....i'm building on 40 acres so i got lick a 500' circular driveway to clear the trees from........
summer's finally hit up here in AK
*Bubs*
i'm in the process of starting to build a new house myself.....just puttin' in a driveway now.....i'm building on 40 acres so i got lick a 500' circular driveway to clear the trees from........
summer's finally hit up here in AK
*Bubs*
i HATE moving. i shoulda had a house fire instead.
the house hunt is over. i bought a two bedroom, 1965, house trailer, on a huge lot. it was cheap, and i got tired of looking.
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hellkitten:
haha.... that's exactly what happened when my family and i were looking for a new house. we all finally got tired of looking and decided on the first one we had looked at. +o)
voltaire:
a roof over your head is always a good thing.....
deep inside of myself, in the inner most corner of the darkest hole in my mind, i keep a box. its a sturdy casing, and i rarely open it. its locked three ways, and camoflaged to keep suspision of its existance to a minimum. inside of that box, i keep the most dear and treasured memories. the smile of my grandmother, my first kiss. a...
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emily:
I like that..
sabine:
thanks. you too.
im starting a new novel today, and its not on spec. i submitted an outline, and it was purchased. im pretty worked up about it, even though the advance is so small it wont buy enough paper and ink cartridges to get through the final draft. i have realized that my drive for writing isnt about selling books, i have no illusions about being on...
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emily:
NIcE
voltaire:
that probably WILL happen.....
you know you need better friends when none of them remember your birthday.
today, i went to a shoot, then out to play pool with some so called friends. all of them forgot it was my birthday. then i checked my mailbox, nothing there either. i didnt even get a happy birthday email. mebbe i should consider being nicer to people. but in that case,...
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today, i went to a shoot, then out to play pool with some so called friends. all of them forgot it was my birthday. then i checked my mailbox, nothing there either. i didnt even get a happy birthday email. mebbe i should consider being nicer to people. but in that case,...
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thursday:
HAPPY DAMN BIRTHDAY!!
i'm sorry no one remembered, but did they even know?
i hate it when my friends keep their birthdays secret and then 'mention' them days later. grrrr.
*shakes fist*
i'm sorry no one remembered, but did they even know?
i hate it when my friends keep their birthdays secret and then 'mention' them days later. grrrr.
*shakes fist*
alia666:
Happy birthday sweetheart!
Happy birthday sweetheart!
im always so busy, yet seldom accomplish a goal.
except....
i gave a cop the finger
told some dude that he needed to look into some deodorant
and i satisfied a craving i have had for three weeks, yet managed to resist for quite some time. donuts smack ass.
except....
i gave a cop the finger
told some dude that he needed to look into some deodorant
and i satisfied a craving i have had for three weeks, yet managed to resist for quite some time. donuts smack ass.
alia666:
Go say hi to my boys and we might consider allowing you in. 
ok, i firmly believe that when one door closes, another one opens.
i was riding my bicycle, and i passed a guy i know, and in the course of talking, he told me about a place that was empty. and who owned it. so i approched the lady, shes about 85 years old. turns out shes anxious to have someone in the place, and she...
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i was riding my bicycle, and i passed a guy i know, and in the course of talking, he told me about a place that was empty. and who owned it. so i approched the lady, shes about 85 years old. turns out shes anxious to have someone in the place, and she...
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zoe:
a pre-emptive congratulations to you! if she doesn't seem to trust you will take care of her home, you could always offer to just give it a trial week, and if she doesn't like the way you run things, then you will give the house up. maybe a suggestion.
xoxo zoe xoxo
xoxo zoe xoxo
thursday:
*crosses fingers*
i was buying a house, not my dream home or anything, but it was a really good deal. half way through closing, the woman selling it backs out. now i have told my present landlord he could feel free to kiss my ass. i wont be able to stay here. houses are difficult to find in my town, and i definatly dont want to live...
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zoe:
funny, i decided long ago that trailer is above efficiency and iffy house on my list of housing options. you could always buy a van/bus and go on a road trip. say you lost both places on purpose...freeing yourself from the man and so on. you could always find a place at may creek farms in bloomington, indiana. it's a commune i lived near when i was growing up. beautiful place, and very safe. if nothing else, consider the scene from fight club when the destruction of tyler's suite is being investigated. free yourself.
here's to you!
xoxo zoe xoxo
here's to you!
xoxo zoe xoxo
alia666:
*gasp* Oh honey, I'm so sorry! Zoe's commune idea sounded really cool. And if worse comes to worse, apartments in Terre Haute usually open up during the summer because the college students move out and go home. Good luck with everything and keep me posted!
all my life, i have looked to the horizon,dreamed that i was meant for something more, and thought there would be a true love. a woman who cared about me above all others.
i was wrong.
the tears wont stop till i realize. for me, horizons are illusion. there isnt more, there just is. love like that is a lie told in pretty wrappings like...
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i was wrong.
the tears wont stop till i realize. for me, horizons are illusion. there isnt more, there just is. love like that is a lie told in pretty wrappings like...
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emily:
Oh my god....I just LOVE what you wrote in your journal....I dont know....Its just so....so..Beautiful...Call me lame if want...
thursday:
don't dream of women on the horizon.
dream of what there is for YOU...
dream of what there is for YOU...
I'm really honored that you care enough about us and trust us enough to share your pain.
I'm new here, don't really know anyone yet, but I'm really awed that your's was one of the first journals I read.
I too am one of those people who hasn't given himself permission to start "living" yet. I fucking HATE that about myself!
You've given me the gift of unconsiously "kicking me in the ass" and telling me to "stop wasting your life."
Thank you for having the courage to REALLY live your life!
I'll split the gas with ya anytime!!
You have such an awesome attitude about this. You're a very, very strong, wonderful person and I have no doubt that you can beat this. You sound like an amazing father as well. I'm always here for you. My email is notapretty_gi77@hotmail.com. Even if you do have to go off SG, try to email me or have someone email me if you don't feel well enough. My thoughts are with you.