matthorror

Shaking like a dog shitting razor blades

Waking up next to nothing

After dreaming of you and me

Waking up all alone

waking up so relieved

While your taking your time with apologies

I’m planning my ways of revenge…

Red eyes on orange horizons

If Columbus was wrong I’d drive straight off the edge

I’m seeing red….

IVE GOT A BIG FAT FUCKING BONE TO...
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I've been knocked down, beat down, black and blue

She's not the one coming back for you!

If I fall back down...

You're gonna help me back up again!

If I fall back down...

You're gonna be my friend!

And I know...I'm married to the sea

So before you go...was there something I could of said to your heart beat better? If only I had known you had a storm to weather. So before you go....was there something I could of said to make it all stop hurting? It kills me how your mind can make you feel so worthless. So....before you go...

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headshot:

Sorry to hear that you are going through a difficult time in your life right now. Quitting is a serious step requiring courage and strength. I think you have it in you. I know you feel bad right now, but it'll pass. Have you talked to a therapist/psychologist? A change of habits requires an equal replacement. This is why private individuals recommend running and sports, particularly running-related sports, to achieve "runner's euphoria"

Aug 7, 2023

matthorror:

@headshot Yeah I started weight lifting again. You'd never know it now by looking at me but years ago I used to be solid. I was never a big guy but solid muscle top to bottom. It was great cause at shows id get in the pit and other dudes thought I was an easy mark being small. More often than not they'd end up on the ground lol miss those times. Idk about therapy. I'm really closed off to what's really going on. Plus I live in the States so even with insurance it costs a fortune. Idk today ain't too bad

Aug 7, 2023