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I've been knocked down, beat down, black and blue

She's not the one coming back for you!

She's not the one coming back for you!

If I fall back down...

You're gonna help me back up again!

If I fall back down...

You're gonna be my friend!

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So before you go...was there something I could of said to your heart beat better? If only I had known you had a storm to weather. So before you go....was there something I could of said to make it all stop hurting? It kills me how your mind can make you feel so worthless. So....before you go...

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headshot:
Sorry to hear that you are going through a difficult time in your life right now.  Quitting is a serious step requiring courage and strength. I think you have it in you. I know you feel bad right now, but it'll pass. Have you talked to a therapist/psychologist? A change of habits requires an equal replacement. This is why private individuals recommend running and sports, particularly running-related sports, to achieve "runner's euphoria"
matthorror:
@headshot Yeah I started weight lifting again. You'd never know it now by looking at me but years ago I used to be solid. I was never a big guy but solid muscle top to bottom. It was great cause at shows id get in the pit and other dudes thought I was an easy mark being small. More often than not they'd end up on the ground lol miss those times. Idk about therapy. I'm really closed off to what's really going on. Plus I live in the States so even with insurance it costs a fortune. Idk today ain't too bad
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How do you deal with depression while trying to be a creative? I've been in such a bad slump for the past month my work is suffering. I've poured my entire savings to start my studio and I'm tanking fast now

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matthorror:
@7swank6 im my own worst critic. I guess we all are to some extent but I really bully myself. So when I swing and miss like lately it’s not easy to let go of it till I make it up somehow. I still got a few sparks left trying to start that forest fire. Just been a mother fucker lately
7swank6:
Ebb and flow......it will reveal itself when it's meant to...... it's cryptic, cliche, condescending, and I fucking can't stand when people give me the "hey Mike,we noticed you've been having a lot problems lately"(if you know, you know) treatment.......but it's true.....shit happens when it's meant to.....I hate it.....but I've started to accept the truth,roll with the punches in the meantime, and eat the humble pie.......every bite sucks, but the objective is to make better pie next time....... funny though, my pie never seems to change taste-ha ha.......👍👍👍🥧🤮.......I just keep eating humble fucking pie!!!!!!🤗...... it'll come around man!!!
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A little over 10 years ago I was a homeless addict. Though I still struggle with sobriety from time to time I’m much more stable. And today I’ve officially become a business owner. Who would’ve ever thought

shalil:
Congrats!
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I can’t even estimate how many fake profiles I’ve had to block on my studios IG page after only a year in existence. Scammers who fancy themselves to be hustlers. Nor do I care to artificially inflate my follower #’s with lifeless backers. I’d rather watch my dream die to honest insignificance than be carried by bloodless faking. I hate the social media age

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Have you ever really thought about the ending? I’ve had for many years but much more so lately. Trying to put things in place for the few that care. More and more I just dont wanna be here anymore.

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