Between working 60 hours a week, school full time and a move in less then two weeks my life is literally an endless cycle of working and sleep with minimal time for working out or having a social life. Even though my life is pretty much beyond crazy most of the time, I still get ample time to think and over analyze my self and life. When I got out of the military I had a clear cut vision of what I wanted out of life and in less then three months that vision is complete fog to me. I wanted to do one thing now I have no idea anymore. So for now I just have to work 6 hours a week to keep myself afloat in this part of the country even though the government claims to care about its veterans, it really just says that for show because even the GI Bill has giant holes in it which leaves a lot of vets to fend almost completely for themselves, but dwelling on the government is well...like dwelling on the government.
With that aside I have been trying to make new friends and not be a hermit that I am very much comfortable with being. My supervisor at LEGO where I work nights knows I work 6 days a week at LA Fitness so we doesn't schedule me on Friday or Saturday nights so I can have at least some down time to do homework, work out, sleep be social ((or blog)). Which is pretty rad.
I've been feeling better and my back hasn't been sore so I got back to working out everyday and that has helped me mood a lot. so all in all my life isn't too terribly bad beside the VA brushing me aside. The only thing that hasn't happened and I assume probably wont happen due to me being me, is the girl part of my life. In my last blog I mention a girl at LEGO but that didn't pan out mostly because I didn't do anything about it now we just smile and small talk and she still has no idea that I'm mad crushing on her. Probably will keep that one forever to myself which is fine because she is way out of my league in every aspect of life.
On the other hand while I was working out after work the other day a lovely young lady approach me and jokingly asked if I lived a the gym because I am either working or working out 7 days a week there, I told her she had no idea. Then she said I need to smile more because life is better when you smile and that she prefers to see me smiling while I work. Since then she has smile and done some other small stuff every time we are both there. But then yesterday I was there and she walked in with a Bro douche bag as we call them ((I apologize if you are one of them)) he had knew high bright yellow socks on, backward hat and the whole works. I again was going to ask her to coffee or whatever but now not going too. I can't tell if I'm being a giant pansy or smart. Oh well life happens, she is probably out of my league as well.
On the bright side my mom is visiting and I haven't seen her or my sister and nephew in a while so that will be a fun time, and since I am moving I will be saving over 1,000 dollars a month which also me happy. Thank al 1 of you for reading this. Hope I didn't waste too much of your time. have a good day I'll see you again soon.
Very respectfully,
Josh