It’s been a while since I made a post on this site. I remember, when I first joined this site, I would spend hours going through every photo set, leaving comments and admiring all of the beauty this site has to offer. But as the years have gone by, I’ve found myself slowly drifting away. Logging in now and then to check notifications and messages and see if there was any set that really stood out to me. I certainly haven’t been as active on this site lately. Especially considering this site has had a huge impact on my life. If it weren’t for this site, my life would be different. My life, would have been nonexistent. And there are so many people on this site I want to thank.
Before I begin, I want to share a little about my life. It was four years ago when I had hit the lowest point in my life. My father received a call on April 1st from a newspaper company wanting to do a story on my brother. They didn’t say what it was in regards to at the time and my father thought it was an April Fool’s. That’s when he found out my brother had been arrested for child molestation. That was the day that changed my life. I was bullied in school growing up and didn’t have many friends. I valued the ones. But they all turned their backs on me that day and we haven’t spoken since. Including my best friend of 12 years at the time. My whole took a turn and I was miserable for quite a while. Hiding the fact that my brother was dead to me from my parents because they still cared about him and still do to this day. It was sometime after that I joined this site and have made some great friends.
First, I want to thank @amandaellen If it weren’t for, I probably never would have signed up this site. I started following her n facebook and I loved the photos she posted. I wanted to help support her and her work. And so I joined Suicide Girls and have not regretted it for a single second.
I want to thank @elisa She was one of the first models I followed. At the time, she was still a hopeful going by elisarios but she soon made her deserving spot on the front page and became pink. She was one of the first models I worked up thee courage to message never expecting a response back. But whe I received one, I was shocked. I didn’t think it would happen but it did.
Next, I want to thank none other than @wednesdaya When I first joined this site, I was single, been single all my life. Even to this day I have never even been on a date. After the incident with my brother I thought nobody would ever like me. That there was nobody out there for me. But when I came across this lovely woman. The this beautiful soul. I fell hard. Here was someone I had a crush. Someone who actually captured my attention and made me believe that there was someone out there. At the time, I knew I didn’t have a chance with her. But just knowing she existed gave me hope that there’s someone for me.
A big thank you to @akiramai You and I have become close friends over the years. You’re one of the few I opened up to about my brother and my feelings towards the whole situation. You’re one of the few who checks in on me to see how I’m doing and not just responding to a message I sent you. With you as friend, I know I always have some one I can talk to. Even if I do have to wait a few days for a response, it’s always worth it. And even though never met and probably never will meet, you’re one of the best friends I have in life. Always wishing I could give you a big hug.
A special thanks to @starry I remember your first set. You stood out to me from the start. From all those years ago when you went by starryskiezz. You had such a unique look and I love how you have evolved over the years. But that’s not the the reason why I’m thanking you. I thank you for how you have made me feel over the years. I have expressed myself and how highly I think of you numerous times. I have enjoyed writing out every card, every letter, every message or comment I have ever sent you. You have been a positive change in my life and I can’t thank you enough for all the joy you’ve brought me. For the countless times you have a put a smile on my face. I truly wish things were better for you. But I am always here if you should ever need me.
I want to thank @mistyy for being the amazing, kindhearted woman she is. Misty, you have been a wonderful friend to me. And even though we don’t talk as much as we used to, I want to thank you for all the conversations we’ve had. I love learning more about your life and getting to know you. I enjoyed playing Monster Hunter with you years ago and hope you and I can play a game together again. I’d love to even just have a voice chat with while we both play separate games. Talking with you is always a pleasure and I look forward to the next time we speak.
@attycus Thank you! You are the one I’ve known the shortest and spoken to the least. But I value the time we have spoken. I want you for who you are. For being who you are. For the passionate soul you behold. I remember your poetry page on instagram when you had it. I remember reading the pieces you wrote and being moved by them. The way you spoke through your writing gripped me tight. It inspired and motivated me to focus on my own writing. To work on my novel. That was the last time I actually got a decent amount of writing done. This blogpost is probably the longest thing I’ve written in a while. A part from a letter I sent to @starry. But the fact is, you and your work motivated me. And now that I see you getting back to your normal self again, I promise to get back to my writing and do whatever I can to finish.
And last but not least @arsenicstar Sorry I had to made you wait so long to read what I wrote about you. I hope it wasn’t a bore. But I remember the first contact we had on this site. It was in the “who needs a hug and why thread” I sent you a big virtual hug. Later you thanked me and said you really needed it. Then, I went to your page and commented that you can have as many hugs as you want. And from there you have become a great friend to me. And over the years, I’ve probably sent you so many virtual hugs that it would take a lifetime to give them all to you. I hope I meet you someday so I can give you at least one hug.
There’s a lot of other amazing woman on this site but I haven’t gotten to know them as well as I have these lovely ladies. You have all made a huge impact in my life and I can’t thank you enough. Sending you all hugs and positive vibes. Enjoy your days, your nights, your weekends,, whatever. Just enjoy your lives. I want you all to be happy because you have all made my lie so much better and I can’t imagine what it would be like without a single on of you.